Another Year Older

So Sunday I turned another year older, and I look back at all the good and bad that has happened this year. It was this time last year, that I got a week late birthday gift...and the best birthday gift a girl could ask for. I found out I was pregnant again!!! :) I couldn't of been any more happy! I was so excited, so nervous and so scared all at the same time! And now I am so blessed with My little Princess, who turned 4 months old today! Where does the time go?!?

Tuesday the 3rd, was also a very sad for me. The one thing I believed in Most came to end. It was something I NEVER thought I would see happen. My parents divorce was final. This year as been a really long year. I have been blessed with such a beautiful  daughter, but while I was enjoying my pregnancy, and watching my daughter grow these past few months, I have also witnessed something that has torn my family apart. This is something that has truely affected more then one can image, at times my whole look at life changes. It still hard for me to believe that after 27 years of Marriage is over. I had always felt so lucky to still have my parents together. About last September I had found out my parents weren't getting along, but they were going to work on things, then come December, it really fell apart. Watching all this has been horrible and really has affected me more then one will ever know. My parents love and relationship was one thing that I truely admired and always looked up too. My Mom and My Dad are my Heros. This is/has been so devastating to me. I maybe 26, married and with a family of my own, but this still affects everyone in the family no matter how old...My parents haven't been living together since December but there has been a piece of me wishing, hoping and praying that things would work out, and we would could all be whole again! But I have to keep believing in Faith, and tell myself that everything happens for a reason. And that God has his plans for everyone. My sister is one that I worry about the most, as she is only 14, and has witnessed more than anyone should. My heart breaks for her, and my whole family. This was the last thing I would of ever thought would happen. Both of My Parents need to be Happy, and need to do what is best for both of them! I just hope wish and pray that they can find it some day in their hearts, to forgive and forget and try to be friends, so Mac can have both of her Grandparents around, and for My Sister. This has made me into someone I am not, I am so bitter, and so mad at life, and I dont ever know why. I would of never thought, that this would effect me this way. So my goal for this year is to get back to the person I use to know, and be happy, with such a positive attitude. I have so much to be Thankful for, I am blessed beyond belief with so many beautiful things/people in my life. So Here is To Amazing, Very Blessed and Beautiful Year.